Wisdom In Waiting
Lately, I have been keeping to myself when it comes to writing. I feel as though I am getting so much information from life and the experiences I am having that I can’t begin to make sense of it all. I admit that I listen to Astrology reports on a daily basis because I truly believe that we are affected by planets. I became a firm believer in this not only as a Sailor at Sea who was constantly having to be aware of tides, but when I started surfing 15 years ago - being at the beaches on a daily basis you see the massive affect the moon/sun have on the ocean - you realize the power!!
Anyways, while listening to Molly McChord yesterday on YouTube I got the best bit of advice which was “There is Wisdom in Waiting” this message gave me so much peace. Right now in my life, I have so many behind the scenes ideas and thoughts about how I want to design my life, where I want to live, what types of work do I prefer to do, how do I want to design my days, who do I want to spend time around….. and the list goes on. From the information I got from Molly’s report - now is not the time to be making big decisions as much as it is a good time to wait and allow things to unfold. This message was music to my ears, because I feel I can barely make decisions on a day to day basis - I am loving the freedom I have right now to change my mind lots, explore new ways of living, and experiencing things on a daily basis. It is very liberating and confusing all at the same time.
For example, I started working out at an amazing gym in the area. I was going to the 6:30am workout. During my military life - I always did my workouts super early in the morning #1 because I had to do that to fit them in without making excuses on not having time #2 I got to the base early, beat traffic, and just made morning times work. So naturally, I felt that I “should” make this work in my life now. A big part of my life design now is making my health and well being (longevity) a priority….. a big part of this is SLEEP and DETOX. When I live in stress the last thing that is good for me is “elimination” aka: pooping. I no longer want to sacrifice this part of my health because I know the importance of it in Detoxing the body as well as I have spent so much extra money getting my body cleaned out because It wasn’t happening naturally on a daily basis under stressful conditions. I made the decision to start attending the gym at 9:30am and I feel better physically, however, it feels weird to change something so simple.
We are creatures of PROGRAMMING - yes habit also, but we have programmed our own mind and body to be a certain way because of the way we think, feel, or survive. When we make changes, we kind of freak out and don’t know how to handle it. Mainly our mind….. but I am watching myself, my thoughts, and seeing all of the chaos that small simple changes create inside of me. (even from a simple change of workout time) So you can imagine all of the chaos going on when someone changes career, relationships, place of living, lifestyle, etc…….
We have freedom to change anything at anytime - however, I feel the early stages of discomfort of change is what sometimes can prevent us from sticking with our changes - that may in the long run do us lots of good. In my times of quiet self reflection, I watch my chaotic mind deal with the needed changes, My workouts that I needed so badly needed in my life - created lots of soreness and discomfort when I started again, but it goes away after a few days/week and then you feel amazing. I feel that is similar to all of the other changes that we face - temporarily we experience discomfort or pain, but after we adjust we reap the amazing benefits from them.
The message “there is wisdom in waiting” is sticking with me strong right now. It was music to my soul, because the only thing I can do right now in my life is take it day by day. I don’t know what I want to be doing in a few months from now, I don’t know what I will be doing a year from now, and this can tend to drive a person crazy who has always had short/long term plans/goals. I have to take deep breaths and remind myself that I can trust the process and that waiting for things to unfold is a wise thing to do.
