Allowing
Oh wow, this word is a good one for me to ponder - Allowing. Dr. Wayne Dyer gave many wonderful topics on the art of allowing & lately I love to listen intensely to the message. I am continuing to work on this art form, however, there is always a pull in the opposite direction that I am aware of and working to release. It seems that in this lifetime I have been "ok" at allowing things to come into my life & to leave my life. Letting go has been the lesson thus far of 2018 and I can't say that I have achieved greatness in this area, it is a work in progress. Today, I am one week out from putting my house on the market to sell and I literally made the move to get this accomplished a week prior by meeting with my realtor for a walk through. This is something I "the personality of Terrish" didn't plan, the selling my home idea came to me as an idea & I feel that all ideas come to us from our Spirit Guides. What doesn't come to us from our Spirit Guides is a plan for the next 5, 10, or 20 years. We don't get that type of guidance from spirit, that is our personality our human self trying to project & protect itself with an idea.
I lived the first 30 something years of my life always knowing or kind of always knowing what was around the next corner in life. I was in a steady career with no chance of getting fired and a safety net that was always there if I fell. 2018 is the first year that I have had freedom to make decisions truly on my own & I haven't really used that super power just yet. In December of last year, I got a gut feeling to go to massage school so I enrolled and started on the 12th of January 2018 in Seattle. Another feeling or "push" I got from the world is to learn about energy work/Reiki/etc and I enrolled in a year long energy/intuition training in Fremont. In the beginning months of the year I was a wreck, an emotional/mental wreck. I was doubting my decision to go to massage school & asked myself what the heck was I thinking by going to school. It was a humbling experience for my ego, but after some time realizing that I had been programmed to feel "important" & "superior" in my other line of work, I was quickly realizing this was the lesson that I needed and that is to be humbled & learn to love & respect people that are my peers in life. It goes without saying that I am exactly where I am, doing exactly what I am doing at this moment and it is all part of a story line that I can not see right now. Sometimes in life when we look back on the story, only then can we see that all of the dots line up perfectly to create this beautiful picture - when you are moving from dot to dot, however, it can be scary and intimidating.
The lesson I am facing today is letting go of material things. I could absolutely keep each and every item and it would be shipped to the destination no problem free of charge. (I am using my final household goods shipment from the government) However, I honestly don't want to continue to need to learn the letting go lesson over and over again. So, in the next month, I will be continuing to let go of more and more "things" and let the universe know that I trust in the abundance that I deserve in my life without having to cling on to the things that I have that I may not truly enjoy or love - out of fear that I may need them. I am open to letting go & allowing the abundance and blessings of life to flow to me.
