Lots of emotions
This morning I awoke before my alarm that was set for 4:45am and I feel refreshed and ready for the day. When I arrived home from school yesterday after 6:45pm I had a very light dinner and relaxed because I had been irritable for most of the day. I feel a little pressed to get many "little" things completed and this weekend I am going to be at my retreat that is being held four hours south of here. I knew when committing to this event that it would be close to my closing date, however, due to the people that are speaking at the event, I am willing to be in this situation.
I went to the housing office at the Navy base last week to let them know the transportation supplier for my move hasn't yet contacted me. I wanted to ensure that all of my to-do paperwork and items where all completed, just incase. The young lady double checked and ensured that I was good to go. I am still eagerly awaiting their call to get my all packed up and out on the 17th which is next Friday. I am very excited to have this big milestone complete so I can quit thinking about it and start living it.
This type of change isn't something that is new for me, however, now instead of moving to fly out to meet a ship that is on deployment I will be living out of my car and my camper. No big deal right?!? My last big move was in January 2016 - I was selling my home in Florida and at the same time going through the home buying process here in Washington. On top of that excitement, I was preparing for a six month deployment and making sure I had all of the things I would need to live on while out on the ship. Needless to say, that was probably one of the most stressful times in my life. I didn't realize it at the moment, since I was just getting through, but it was very stressful. I am happy that I squeezed in a nice visit to my family that year before heading west.
I am happy to break free from the stress of home ownership for a while and use that energy that I used to maintain the home, the energy and the money to do other things with my time. I am looking forward to writing more, and attending more events in the last six months of this year than all of last year combined. Sometimes in life it seems there is always a give and take, a push and pull, the yin and yang. All we have to decide for ourselves is what do we desire, ask ourselves what will bring us joy. I am currently re-reading the book "The Four Agreements" and the introduction to the book is amazing. It reminded me that all of our human existence consist of agreements that we have made about ourselves and life. Much of the agreements were made before we were even aware of them, opinions and ideas that come from the family or group of people that raise us from a young baby. It is up to us to use our judgment and freedom of choice to make the decisions that can reframe and reshape our life at any moment. Lucky for me, I took the opportunity to leave my home and travel and see the world for the younger part of my adult life which opened my eyes to many things I otherwise never would have seen. However, even in the time I was in the Navy we are still surrounded by limited thinking and limited beliefs. I am doing my best this year to expand my mind and use my creativity to dream up possibilities of what I want life to be like. The brilliant thing that makes us humans special compared to our animal friends is the ability to make choices every second of everyday. I hope this new experience will expand my beliefs and faith in myself and in life even more than it is now. I truly feel that life is meant to be an adventure. I really enjoy getting out of my comfort zone and my emotions are running wild in anticipation of the start of the journey.