Where to Next?
As I write this post, the movers are here packing up my furniture and belongings that will be going to Tennessee. Many people ask me what am I doing next? I don't have an answer for anyone anymore. I feel I have lived my young life always having an answer for others that made them feel good. I was always searching for someone else's approval of my life and choices. I feel when we are children, all we do is feel that we disappoint our parents as well as feel like we let them down because our performance in school or our social choices aren't good enough. What I have learned is we can not live our life trying to get validation from anyone else. Our approval of what we choose to do can only come from within our heart from our souls' guidance. This would be commonly referred to as our souls purpose.
I feel each and every person on the planet has a very specific soul purpose, however, when we are born as a baby human - our memory of that soul purpose is erased in order for us to have the experiences we need in order to return to that soul truth. As soon as we are born, we are given a name and a gender and already we are put into a little box of the world we live in. If you are a male, there can be certain expectations and rules and similar for a female - following the rules of the "adults" that are here to keep us alive and feed us and such. I have heard this whole thing being referred to as "EARTH SCHOOL" and this makes total sense to my mind - we are not here to prove anything, we are just here to learn lessons and advance our souls with each classroom. When we are young, the classroom is most of the time limited to the family that we are born into and when we become adults we sometimes gain the wisdom from things outside of what we were taught at home from out family.
There is not one way in life that is better than the other because (as I have learned) each soul is on a specific learning track in this lifetime. Each person that is living has different lessons, different chapters and challenges that it must face and overcome or work through in order to learn and evolve. Sometimes the souls may not evolve until they transition back to the spirit realm (human death) and experience a life review where they have to review each part of their life and see what they did well, what they learned and what they could maybe do better on in the next lifetime that they choose to experience.
What I have learned recently, that I feel is the best lesson for me at this juncture in my life is to focus on myself and what my heart and soul really wants in life. What things make me feel good? What things don't make me feel good? I have learned that our only focus in life should be to make ourselves feel good and radiate love. When we feel good, we attract good things. When we feel good, we can be aware of our judgement of others. When we feel good, we can remind ourselves gently to allow others to walk their path and make their decisions they need to make. When we feel good, it is easier to see others in a loving way instead of looking with judgement. With all of this being said about feeling good, my focus on the "what is next" in my life is to do whatever makes me feel good at the moment.
I don't really have an answer for what is next, but I have a good idea that I will be taking lots of Hot Yoga Classes to keep my body feeling good. I will be eating and drinking healthy food & water and most importantly, I will be continuing my daily meditations to connect with the matrix of the divine intelligence that surrounds us every moment of every day. I know in order for me to feel good, I must embrace silence and listen to my heart and I trust whole it will always guide me to the next right thing in my life.
