Feelings
Today as I wake up in my Canadian hotel room, I feel unrest. To be completely honest, I am not as prepared for my event as I feel I should be at this point in time and my morning hours will be spent making last minute preparations for my Mind Movie and downloading apps and meditations that will be used throughout the week.
I have heard that procrastination is a a product of low self esteem. I can sometimes do things that are not conducive to my success or that are on my to-do list and give my attention to other things. To be completely honest, I know this event is going to change my life. It is going to lay a foundation of a life that I can’t even imagine right now, and I want to share that this scares me a little. As humans, we get really used to having a plan or thinking that we now how things are supposed to work out. This is not the best path, because we are constantly limiting ourselves and our potential.
I need to get my ass in gear, get my items done so when I check in with my team leader in four hours….. I am prepared and I can ask questions that are important and not have a sorry excuse of why I don’t have my items prepared for this event that I have been looking forward to for months and months. I owe it to myself to do my absolute best at this event, take the work seriously and after the event…. continue to do the work necessary to improve my life.
We make our very own mind movie - this movie is something that has how we want to feel, what we want to create, the way we want to live our life, and who we want to be in the movie. This is what I have been procrastinating on, because to be honest……… I am still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I can choose anything I want. I feel that I have so much freedom right now, that I don’t want to add to much more WORK to my plate in 2019…. however, I am going to think ahead of this year after I have had time to unwind, work on a farm, camp, hike, surf and all of the fun things that I want to do. While I am busy having fun this year and enjoying my freedom, I will use my mind movie that I create and the medications to create my best and brightest future.
I am scared of my power to be honest!!! Sometimes, I feel we get comfortable in our little shell of a life, however, I think that by acknowledging my fear, I can start to release it. I want to know success that is grounded, peaceful, connected to the earth, and connected to my joy. I know that I have to create what success will look like for myself and not compare what success is for others or what the old energy of the world has painted it to be.
Success can be peaceful, success can have love and relationships, and success can have happy & fulfilling travel as well as a nice solid place to call home with an off grid homestead.
