Fruits of my Labor
This picture was taken by one of my friend Christine’s children after I spent an hour or more picking blackberries on their property. Since I was a young girl, there has been an immense satisfaction from working on something and seeing a fruitful outcome. In my teenage years, I started to seek money making opportunities using this “skill” of mine. I think I was barely old enough to drive when I started cleaning my friends houses for compensation (they also had a swimming pool which was fun to get to use as a reward) Looking back, it wasn’t just money I was looking for, I was looking for love. When I did work for other people, it was a way that I could get acceptance from them - praise and love. Yes, these people paid me money, but as I write this I realize what I have always been searching for (and I believe we all are) is love and acceptance. Lucky for me, I used my work skills for good things, but I will admit that when I was a teenage girl I also used my sexuality in ways to try to gain some sort of love from the boys in my life. What I understand about using things to gain love is that it always has an after effect on our self esteem. What I now am starting to understand, it doesn’t matter what anyone things or feels about me. If I don’t like myself and/or love myself, I will always be searching and yearning for love. This is part of the journey I am on. I didn’t realize that stepping out of the norm to save more money and gain more financial freedom that I would find more and more self love in the process.
I would be lying right now if I told anyone that things are easy in what I am doing, however, I am being very challenged in my ability to go with the flow and adapt to different roadblocks that come up on my path. I am currently staying at The Moore property to help me get my feet on the ground better while the state of Washington is having amazing camping weather - it hasn’t been easy for me to bounce from campground to campground in the peak of campaign season. Most people would think that after Labor Day - camping is over for the season. I have found this to be WRONG and the campgrounds are all full especially on the weekend. I am going to stay at the Moore property for this full week to allow myself some time to get online and make some reservations and have a better plan of action.
Back to the beginning topic of work - I really love being of service. I have started teaching yoga again which happened organically and I have to really watch myself getting too wrapped up in work while I am still wanting to keep balance in my learning and teaching. I never anticipated taking on a job right away as I was selling my home, it just kind of happened and I feel that is one of the largest hurdles I am facing in my nomad lifestyle thus far. Most nomads can work from computer, however, I attend school in person and teach in person classes - that is not nomadic. So - until I can be nomadic next year when I am wrapped up with massage school I will be the person that is living in a camper and saving her money in preparation for a more nomadic lifestyle.
