Freedom To Feel
EMOTIONS - everybody’s got em!! If you are close friend of mine, you know that I have lived my life intensely feeling all of my emotions. (I like to call it a train wreck of emotions) however, it really hasn't ended up a train wreck now that I understand myself better each day by using emotions as the important TOOL they are to us as humans.
When it comes to the vibes comment, I will share what my deep intention of this trip is besides seeing beautiful friends and beautiful places. My entire life as a child was spent growing up in Tennessee, I was always excited to see the world as a kid. I joined the Navy, moved into that world where I was always moving, but it was based on where the job took me and honestly, I was never disappointed. I have always been happy with all of the places I have lived. (Virginia, Italy, Hawaii, San Diego, Washington State, Florida) However, now that I am no longer in the Navy, and I am in my space between chapters of career….. I thought it would be good to travel around and see what makes me feel good. In other words, what places make me feel good and give me good vibes.
After I finish my training next week here in Tampa, My best friend is flying in to join me for a few days and her and I plan on going to North Florida where she will have to fly out. I will take my time to visit friends in the area and fingers crossed get some fun surf. Regardless, I will be getting in the water. Once I finish visiting friends I will take time to be with my family in Tennessee. I am using all of this adventure to see how certain places, people and things make me feel. I have always wanted to the freedom to choose, so I feel it is my duty to honor my needs before rushing in to commit to my next chapter of service and career. Since I was young girl, I have always felt happy and fulfilled to be of service and work hard for what I earn. My mother taught me this and to be completely honest, I am dealing with some work withdrawals due to conditioning in my mind that if I am not working I am lazy. I am not saying that I agree with this, but I do know the only way to become aware of our programing is to slow down and stop the rush of being so busy we don’t have time to understand ourselves. This is a big part of the “work” I am doing on this trip and it is like no other “work” I have ever done. I won’t be getting any acknowledgement from anyone or promoted for this “work” I am doing, however, I feel to be of service to others/the world in the best way I can - I must first serve myself, my souls desires, my needs for understanding this human journey at hopefully at least a kindergarten level. I truly once I have honored my own needs I can be more present for others and continue to be a better version of myself each day.
