Closing Day
Well, it has been a long time coming..... today is officially the day that I am finally free of my home & the selling process. Just to recap - I received the message in late JUNE to see my home and it officially went on the market 12 July - had a buyer within 4 days, but the whole "money" process that buyers that need a home loan go through is a long process. I am very excited to close this chapter in my life and never look back. I have spent the past year going through so many emotions of my life, my previous relationship, my previous career, and my previous personality and I am finally done with analyzing it all and I want to be free of the emotions. My meditations have been helping me drastically.
I am writing this morning from a Starbucks, I woke up in my camper in the woods on my friends property, it was raining so I headed into town to go to the gym, get a workout and a hot shower. I will be using the gym today on the Navy base and I am also going to cruise over the the campground that I will call home next week to scope out the setting since it is pretty close to where I am at. I am slowly feeling a little bit more settled in what I am doing in my life, but nothing feels normal that is for sure. The one thing I know for sure is that I can face this new lifestyle with a great attitude and a sense of adventure that I have been craving for quite some time now.
I have not even broke out my computer this entire last week, but I have been documenting my thoughts and feelings on paper which is really what this blog is all about. I wanted to continue to create the habit of daily writing and get more in touch with my true feelings and stay away from social media post which can many times only make things in peoples life seem "peachy" and "awesome" but I needed an outlet for me to express my true feelings and thoughts and since I am living in a teeny tiny space with absolutely no more room for stuff, I can't continue to write journals and journals of thoughts when I can easily save it all her on the inter web of information.
My hope is to be able to reflect on the lessons and growth that I experience from following my heart instead of my mind. I also hope that any person who reads or sees my experiences knows that the girl they see as so strong and brave has many of the exact same emotions of fear, doubt, sadness, and uncertainty as they do. However, I do feel that I do my best not to hang on to those emotions - I allow myself to feel each feeling that comes along, I am honest with my feelings and then I release them and practice my power of choosing new emotions and thoughts.
You are the powerful creator of your life - you are not a victim, you have a choice each and every day and that choice is your thoughts. Meditation & the powerful practice of sitting still with myself has changed my life and this all started back in 2011 when I was first introduced to what yoga is really about and that is meditation. I actually started the movement part of yoga in 2008, but meditation was the key to my practice in 2011 that helped me really feel and release all of the emotions that I have been holding on to since I was a precious little girl. I am still studying and learning all of the science behind how much unfelt emotions have a control over our health and well being - it is absolutely fascinating. My intention for the next few years and moving forward in my life is to continue to dedicate my life to first my own well being & happiness and I want to continue to study how it works so I can properly inform anyone who wants to change their life, how to do it and how it works so it becomes less mystical and more scientific. I love what Dr. Joe Dispenza says "Science is the contemporary languange that unites us all." I want to continue to carry on his legacy and learn so I can liberate myself and anyone else that feels they are searching for more freedom.
